I'm not here
nor there
nor anywhere
I am far
from reach
and in despair.
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2.9.16
22.8.16
/ Two Hundred & Twenty Four
My brother thanked me the other day for cleaning up a portion of the mess in his room (I believe what I did wasn't much of a big deal, just folded the duvets and realigned the pillows): "Thank you for clearing the rat's den." Cool.
13.5.16
20.3.16
/ Two Hundred & Twenty Two
III
1. A moment to appreciate that this is the 222nd ep of ramblings. May all good things come for you, and me too. Me tew tew tew.
2. You're not fully adulting w/out the losing of a few friends.. or a heap. So I've heard. Give yourself a chance to be positive in your own skin- build a strong emotional/intellectual base on your own; that way the dependence on others would gradually lessen..
So not to say that dependence is a nuisance- dependance to God isn't, so is that to the ones who actually care.
Don't consider yourself a discounted item fm the outdated section.
3. 🐰
1. A moment to appreciate that this is the 222nd ep of ramblings. May all good things come for you, and me too. Me tew tew tew.
2. You're not fully adulting w/out the losing of a few friends.. or a heap. So I've heard. Give yourself a chance to be positive in your own skin- build a strong emotional/intellectual base on your own; that way the dependence on others would gradually lessen..
So not to say that dependence is a nuisance- dependance to God isn't, so is that to the ones who actually care.
Don't consider yourself a discounted item fm the outdated section.
3. 🐰
5.3.16
/ Two Hundred & Twenty One
III
1. I'm fun if you are.
2. Every lesson's a blessing, every blessing's a lesson, it works both ways.
3. Loads of times the little ppl in my head argue dramatically, my socks slide off my feet, I have datelines coming out as prompt msgs in my brain- all simultaneously- but somehow I still manage to pull off an OK face haha so yea I guess I'm fine.
Fun too. Lest you forget.
1. I'm fun if you are.
2. Every lesson's a blessing, every blessing's a lesson, it works both ways.
3. Loads of times the little ppl in my head argue dramatically, my socks slide off my feet, I have datelines coming out as prompt msgs in my brain- all simultaneously- but somehow I still manage to pull off an OK face haha so yea I guess I'm fine.
Fun too. Lest you forget.
27.2.16
/ Two Hundred & Twenty
III
1. To err is human, to erghhrr is me.
2. My thankyous go to the wonderful ppl who have taught me Physics in high school and during my two semesters of Foundations'- the subject isn't rly my cup of cocoa but if it isn't for you amaaazing ppl I certainly would not be able to laugh when I watch the Big Bang Theory episodes.
3. It's tough not to fall back feeling like an oaf when you go to introductory events / fresh gatherings / recruitment sessions w/ hopes that you'd somehow make new acquantainces and then everything would falter majestically the moment you're aware of the fact that the majority brought their friends along to perhaps "not feel alone" and well, yes, end up like "the person who is (that would be me)".
At the end of the day I would feel the need to blame a side- struggling btwn my own lack of befriending slash awkward social skills (not mentioning the burning introversion I have) and the fact that ppl refuse to explore the wonders of budding friendships... I can safely say that I, more often than not, settle on the former.
If you happen to be friends w/ me in real life, hi :) thanks for tolerating meee.
1. To err is human, to erghhrr is me.
2. My thankyous go to the wonderful ppl who have taught me Physics in high school and during my two semesters of Foundations'- the subject isn't rly my cup of cocoa but if it isn't for you amaaazing ppl I certainly would not be able to laugh when I watch the Big Bang Theory episodes.
3. It's tough not to fall back feeling like an oaf when you go to introductory events / fresh gatherings / recruitment sessions w/ hopes that you'd somehow make new acquantainces and then everything would falter majestically the moment you're aware of the fact that the majority brought their friends along to perhaps "not feel alone" and well, yes, end up like "the person who is (that would be me)".
At the end of the day I would feel the need to blame a side- struggling btwn my own lack of befriending slash awkward social skills (not mentioning the burning introversion I have) and the fact that ppl refuse to explore the wonders of budding friendships... I can safely say that I, more often than not, settle on the former.
If you happen to be friends w/ me in real life, hi :) thanks for tolerating meee.
20.2.16
18.2.16
15.2.16
/ Two Hundred & Seventeen
III
1. If you're a breathing organism, and you're certainly not a co-author... hi! Wow we do have actual readers yay!
2. I learned that a) pleasing others may please you too; but many times that just can't happen, and it's tiring to delay your own happiness for the bunch that will only take you for granted.
b) you can never fully say that you understand what it feels like to be in somebody (else)'s shoes.. unless you're, well.. the one owning the pair (of shoes).
c) friendship is tricky.
3. I need beneficial distractions.
1. If you're a breathing organism, and you're certainly not a co-author... hi! Wow we do have actual readers yay!
2. I learned that a) pleasing others may please you too; but many times that just can't happen, and it's tiring to delay your own happiness for the bunch that will only take you for granted.
b) you can never fully say that you understand what it feels like to be in somebody (else)'s shoes.. unless you're, well.. the one owning the pair (of shoes).
c) friendship is tricky.
3. I need beneficial distractions.
14.2.16
/ Two Hundred & Sixteen
III
1. The day I am able to muster all my strength against procrastination shall be the day I conquer the world.
2. Homesickness should be in the list of non-made up discomforts, if you ask me. Nausea had me this morning- it's cool (thank God) that the first class for the subject (that was supposed to commence today at 1100) was rescheduled to Wednesday. (I'd feel bad if I would have to skip my very first class of this semester).
I used to not hate the beginning of new semesters (or at least not this much) (whatever happened to all the positiveness I used to have?!) Now that I've both feet glued in-campus for my final few months I MUST behave... I do not see the chances of me tolerating an extension; not right now.. no.
3. READ, HUMAN. Time well spent is time spent reading (real materials.. not Buzzfeed, although that works too sometimes).
1. The day I am able to muster all my strength against procrastination shall be the day I conquer the world.
2. Homesickness should be in the list of non-made up discomforts, if you ask me. Nausea had me this morning- it's cool (thank God) that the first class for the subject (that was supposed to commence today at 1100) was rescheduled to Wednesday. (I'd feel bad if I would have to skip my very first class of this semester).
I used to not hate the beginning of new semesters (or at least not this much) (whatever happened to all the positiveness I used to have?!) Now that I've both feet glued in-campus for my final few months I MUST behave... I do not see the chances of me tolerating an extension; not right now.. no.
3. READ, HUMAN. Time well spent is time spent reading (real materials.. not Buzzfeed, although that works too sometimes).
26.1.16
22.1.16
Two Hundred & Fourteen
III
1. Love is the greatest form of art.
2. How my mind works is even trivial to me; I can't blame anyone if they don't get my guts.. frankly many times I find them incredibly difficult to fathom myself.
3. I have the ability to capture the essence of things that don't matter.. what's your redundant superpower?
1. Love is the greatest form of art.
2. How my mind works is even trivial to me; I can't blame anyone if they don't get my guts.. frankly many times I find them incredibly difficult to fathom myself.
3. I have the ability to capture the essence of things that don't matter.. what's your redundant superpower?
15.12.15
/ Two Hundred & Thirteen
III
1. Sleep peacefully tonight, knowing your real life is magical; and the pile of whatnots you exhibit on social media do not even compare to the degree of everything you have ever owned.
2. I have always been this insecure, guilt-driven... warrior. The intensity of things; of the ability to feel, to be the most obvious, sometimes shoot sharply towards the stars when the exams are near.
The exams are now tickling my feet, and I'm internally sobbing from the sensation.
3. :')
1. Sleep peacefully tonight, knowing your real life is magical; and the pile of whatnots you exhibit on social media do not even compare to the degree of everything you have ever owned.
2. I have always been this insecure, guilt-driven... warrior. The intensity of things; of the ability to feel, to be the most obvious, sometimes shoot sharply towards the stars when the exams are near.
The exams are now tickling my feet, and I'm internally sobbing from the sensation.
3. :')
12.12.15
27.11.15
24.11.15
/ Two Hundred & Ten
Some people are like pimples. First they start to grow on you; then they mess around w/ your moods, they bring pain, constant irritability and annoyance; that, then they make you feel ugly, and everytime that happens you just can't do anything about it; some are just terrible.. especially those in favour of leaving marks behind to remind you of how they hurt.
But then again when they're gone, the world's a MUCH happier place.
But then again when they're gone, the world's a MUCH happier place.
20.11.15
/ Two Hundred & Nine
III
1. I bow down to the Almighty five times a day, then I go by telling myself I'm superior to other people; where am I heading w/ all this hypocrisy?
2. I'm an adult, I create my own rules. My first rule is to NOT be an adult.
3. *channeling my inner Daria Morgendorffer*
1. I bow down to the Almighty five times a day, then I go by telling myself I'm superior to other people; where am I heading w/ all this hypocrisy?
2. I'm an adult, I create my own rules. My first rule is to NOT be an adult.
3. *channeling my inner Daria Morgendorffer*
18.11.15
/ Two Hundred & Eight
While I'm manically deciding what to eat fm the same boring menu, some aren't of any options but to breathe in starvation; then they scurry along, creating life fm minimal supplies.
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