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"If you remove all man-created noise in the world, what then will you hear?  --


-- Will it take your breath away?"

/ Sixty Nine

The Hate list:

13. That unknown emotion in between guilt and empathy; between tantrums and caging it all in; and holding on / letting go. The state of being aware that you've been shoved to lower grounds but you can never blame the person who did it; because your own pinches of sadness will be bad for the person-- in the long run.

And then all you have is yourself. And you are to blame too, because you are selfishly ungrateful.

14. Waking up late when your to-do list is, at current times, is more than thrice your height.

15. Both points combined.

/ Sixty Eight

Jealousy is a disease, get well soon. 

"And wish not for the things in which Allah has made some of you to excel others. For men there is reward for what they have earned, (and likewise) for women there is reward for what they have earned, and ask Allah of His Bounty. Surely, Allah has indeed full knowledge of everything."

An-Nisa (4): 32

/ Sixty Seven

Things are about to change.. for the better, I'm praying for that, yes.

--

"What are the reasons for you not to believe in yourself, when Allah believes in you from the start?"

/ Sixty Six

I apologize for these times when I can not tell you that what you've been doing all this while.. is wrong.

I too, am weak; and while I'm bottling up- all I can do is pray for you. It's not right to loiter around waiting for things to happen by themselves, and it's highlighted that you have your rights too. I'm sorry, all that I want is that neither of us will be asked to pay for the consequences--

May we be forgiven.

/ Sixty Five

Hey June
Don't make it bad
Take my grades, oh
And make them better

Remember
To never torture my heart
Then I can start
To make things..
Better

/ Sixty Four

I have both my feet in the war zone now, simultaneously am a one man army. My own soldier, in a one-on-one battle with myself.

And no one can annihilate these unlikely thoughts from the source if I can't believe in myself, can I?
Bombs away!

0063

What happened sun?
What's not shining today?
The clouds' got your tongue?
All they want to do is stay.

What's the matter sun?
Why are you so capitalised?
The world is here for you.
Please don't get those tears in your eyes.

I hope you're okay sun.
We all need you.
I know everything's said and done.
But nothing can shine more than you.

So please shine on sun.
All I hope is for you to rise.
Nobody likes it cold and windy.
We all want to see the sun comes!

Du du du duu~

/ Sixty Two

DON'T TALK TO ME TODAY. Everybody, come back tomorrow.

/ Sixty One

"And it is He who produced for you hearing, vision and hearts. (But) little are you grateful."

- Al Mu'minoon (23): 78

/ Sixty

"And when she needs to shelter from reality
She takes a dip
In my daydreams."

- Arctic Monkeys, Arabella

/ Fifty Nine

I was able to wake up for Fajr this morning, received Assalamu'alaikum from my folks ((always there wishing for my day to be a good one)) & blessed enough to have bites and H2O. And all my limbs in perfect condition.

Tell me to give up whining, because all of these can disappear in a blink; and then I wilt without even realising the fact I had more than I ever could've asked for.

0058

If it's me you're asking,
then no.

The sun is shining more and more lately,
we had to open the windows.

We even had to use a portable fan! :O

/ Fifty Seven

"Those who have tasted the bitterness of Jahiliyyah.. appreciates the sweetness of tarbiyyah." - Unknown.

0056

"Islam comes to a land and rises through the people, (and) not through the language of hate." - Nouman Ali Khan

0055

Most people can prematurely accept that the world owes them nothing, and they owe the world at least something.

'Giving back to the world', they say.

Now let's take a step back and change a few words from the statement.

"Allah owe you nothing, and you owe Allah everything"

Because we believe that God created the world right? Surely He's far above the world by millions, right?

And yet, He gives you everything you never asked for. 
Your existence.
Your purpose.
Your being.
Your life.

What can you ever repay Him with?

(sigh)

/ Fifty Four

Is it chilly too, where you are?

/ Fifty Three

"If your heart is full of love
Could you give.. it up?"

- Birdy.

/ Fifty Two

If I showed you the poetic side of me.. then I must have liked you a lot.

/ Fifty One

((When we are in touch with a favorite song, some parts of the lyrics light up and most times, feeling as artsy as ever, we try to relate sentences with pictures of scenes in our heads. We walk in motion syncing to the words we hear, bobbing heads to beat after beat. We capture them as if real life scenarios are clipped together with background music; be it mellow, be it otherwise.))

--

Now imagine this: sister chromatids are singing sadly to each other during anaphase.. just before they separate to reach their respectively opposite poles.

"Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start."

- Coldplay, The Scientist.

/ Fifty

Me to grades: "And I will try.. to fix you."

0049

I love those journeys certain songs can take you in.

Muse does that a lot to me, for some reason.

I shall not name the songs for I know the wrath that will fall upon me if I do.

Or shall I? :P

/ Forty Eight

"You have mass, and you occupy space.
You matter."

- Anonymous.

/ Forty Seven

"We enjoined upon man to be dutiful to his parents. His mother bore him in weakness upon weakness, and his weaning lasted two years. (We, therefore, enjoined upon him): “Give thanks to Me and to your parents. To Me is your ultimate return."

- Luqman (31): 14

0046

I find it stupid and bluntly pointless for Muslims to encourage hate on another fellow Muslim in the spirit of spreading Islam.

I mean, it's like you're saying "in the name of spreading peace in the world I am actively and rightfully engaging in the act of hating another peacemaker."

Like, seriously?

Put aside every other thing about them, they are Muslims too, for Allah's sake. 

They are in the religion of peace too, and so are you!

They are practising and embracing the teachings of Islam and the Sunnahs of our beloved Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) too, and so are you!

There are other (more beautiful and peaceful) ways of correcting a fellow Muslim's shortcomings, and enticing hate on him/her shouldn't even be a consideration ever. Our beloved Prophet was sent as a Messenger to all humanity, but above all, he was sent to perfect our characters and behaviours. Why are we not being a testimony to that?

If we can't even love our own brothers and sisters for the sake of Allah, how can we expect our same bodies and souls to show concern and care for the not yet Muslim in the name of Da'wah?

How can we expect our same bodies and souls to fulfil the purpose of being the slaves of The Most Loving and Merciful when we ourselves are showing hatred and resentment towards each other, nevermind the not yet Muslims?

Spreading hate will only sprout more hatred, and spreading more love are bound to blossom even more love because it is our innate nature to love, and not to hate. We were born through love, let us leave this world giving love and being loved by others.  

Wallahu 'a'lam.

/ Forty Five

The Hate list:

10. Excessive PDA (public displays of affection). Ew. Even the thought makes me want to take multiple showers.

11. Every nervous test-taking student's favorite question: "Do you think you're ready (for a gruesome roller coaster ride)?"

12. Public wooing. It does not matter how young (or how old); or how much of a looker you are.. don't. Just don't let your inner rodents out, guys. You're better than that, okay?

/ Forty Four

The Hate list:

7. The state of pure nausea & anxiety crashing in when you're about to sit for a test/quiz.

8. Familiar faces & places so far away fm reach..

9. The menacing voices in your head that tell you that nothing, nothing but sleep.. can kill all your demons.

/ Forty Three

((Detach to reattach))

0042

"There's nothing you can do that can't be done.

 Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.

 Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game,

 it's easyyyy!" 

Lennon's bidding you the best, go and catch 'em all! ;)

0041

-Wisdom of The Day-

Grocery Shopping

Never enter a supermarket/hypermarket/mini market etc with an empty stomach.

You're sure to regret it tomorrow.

0040

Annoy Me Please

1. Inconsistent people
2. Loud people
3. Irresponsible people
4. Busy bodies

0039

I have a theory about myself.

I have this hunch that the more I think about something and anticipate it with imagining every possible thing related to the thing, the more likelihood of it not happening.

I overthink too, sometimes. 

And this worries me a lot.

/ Thirty Eight

Fact is, I'm not running away from you. I'm running away from the side of me that I despise.

/ Thirty Seven

Like Magnets

A part of me is drawn towards you.

Who am I, to deny this inevitable force of attraction?

I have the slightest idea
Of how this field affects your maneuvers

Will you proceed to seek repulsion
Or will you not?

I have the slightest idea
Of how this field affects your maneuvers

But if this interferes with my momentum
To achieve what's right
This calls for an elevation
In both faith and trust

I don't want to be just
Like magnets
Weakly adhering to the pull

I want to be just
Like believers
Me, not losing my cool

--

April / 2013

/ Thirty Six

We're responsible for what we say, not what others understand. We are held accountable to what we spit out, and this is exactly how we are judged.

But it is not wrong to take care of people's feelings too while you're at it, so why not do that too? The world is already too crowded with full time cynics. Full time cynics.

Have a nice day.

/ Thirty Five

"Your chromosomes have combined beautifully." - Anonymous.