/ One Hundred & Sixty Two

If you're afraid of tasting your own medicine, maybe you should stop prescribing them to me- it's sadistic, even the thought of it. Certain times I wondered how it would be like to switch roles, just so that you'd understand the growing struggle I have under my skin; but then.. would I want to? Would that provide me solace?

Maybe I won't, because I like mine. I've lived this role all my life, and I do not remain how am I just to shift sides.

Some days I wish you'd drown in the guilt you created for me (of which I thought came from myself)-

The world is cruel 

And temporary

And bizarre- and it breaks me more everyday.

And in your presence, I am very much.. reminded of that.

I pray that forgiveness will be  my best form of revenge.

But on a side note, or better- to begin with, this battle isn't mine,

it's yours.